The Hunt

I don’t think it’s just me, but setting goals about what you want in life can sometimes prove to be a very painful process. The past few months of job searching has finally taken it’s toll on me… NOT. I just need your support, I promise, I’ll make the rest work.

Smokin’

Have an exam tmr but all I can think of now is ‘why is the friggin weather so bloody hot!’

The Right Spots

Was talking to a good friend last night and it made me realise how some things said, can never be taken back. And how certain words and actions will forever impact a person’s life. I guess we are/were all victims.

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.
Ephesians 4:29

P.S. Yay! ‘Informal discussion’ in Singapore awaits! :)

P.P.S. I’ve been sleeping but am soooo tired. I feel so drained, my eyes hurt and I think I need to sleep.

Irony VS Stress

As much as I really dislike my final sem in uni (academics wise), and as much as I want to get rid of my very extremely horrid exams, a part of me is feeling a tad bit down knowing that after the exams, it’s pretty much ‘bye uni!’ for me :(

I’m excited about starting work, but worried at not being able to find a job that I’ll like. I want the exams to end, but I don’t want to ever finish uni. I want to enjoy the states and Sydney, but that would also mean having to sit for 2 more sucky papers. I want to earn my own money, but I’d also rather be studying etc etc etc.

I guess it’s just part and parcel of going through a transition. And honestly, it really doesn’t help that my exams are so frgggggin difficult :( I feel like quitting uni right now, but that would also mean wasting 1.5 years worth of fees and time and effort and etc. Ahh.. Sorry, I’m just in a bit of a crappy mood atm. Promise things will get better after the 18th. Promise.

Ohmahgolliwog

You know you’re in deep shit when you email your lecturer to clarify some doubts, and all her reply does is to further confuse you. Someone remind me again why I hate her so much. Ugh!

For Everyone

Oh yes, it will be :)

Matthew 17:20

The way God works is amazing. It just spurs me to want to work harder and strive to achieve more so that I can bring glory to His name at the end of it all; simply because I’m not perfect and I’ve failed many times, but He’s always been there to carry me up again.

‘I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you’

Pillars

I’m in a bit of a sappy mood today. Guess it’s just one of those days that I miss my friends terriblyyyy.. I’d consider myself very blessed to have been able to meet a lot of genuine friends along the way. Everyone who’s had a place in my heart has somehow or rather helped to shape who I am today.

I Guess That Is Why

#2

I have to be fair to #2. She’s been asking for her note. Wanted to write this after my exams because I wanted to conjure in my head all the ‘wonderful’ things I want to say about her, but since I’m done with my ’so called work’ for the day, why not? So… This note is dedicated to my sidekick aka partner-in-crime aka fight buddy aka IPL buddy aka sleeping blanket monster etc etc etc (the list can go on forever).

Dear Jana,

It’s surprising how I still remember the days before and after you were born. It must have been when I was somewhere around 2-3 years old when I told Mom and Dad that I wanted a little sister to play with. Obviously, I didn’t know how babies were made at that time, so they just told me to pray. Every night back then, the three of us would huddle around Mom and Dad’s bed and pray for a baby sister for Joy Joy. I would often have to say a line or two during the prayers and I would just keeeeeep asking God for a baby sister. Cut the long story short, I got MY OWN baby sister just before I turned 4 :D I remember you would always be lying in a huge sarong thingy in my room. Maybe the sarong wasn’t that big, but you were so small, you made the sarong look big.

It’s been 19 years since you were a quiet and cute looking little baby with a tiny rosebud mouth. You have since morphed into a monsterous very loud and talkative teenager. The horror!! Ok kidding! But yes, through the years, we’ve had our fair share of fights, banging of doors etc; stuff most siblings go through (something I see in JnJ almost everyday!). Sometimes the fights are so bad they end in tears and long distance calls to mom. Of course at times (very very rarely), I’m the one to blame. For instance, I looovvee to question/interrogate you about ANY guy that you have any mere contact with. Call it the over-protective-sister syndrome kicking in. But you would get SOO mad at me and our fights would start. And because older sisters never lose (or so I have just hypothesised), I would never let you win any fight without giving it my all (be it word sparring, pillow throwing etc.)

Before most of you must be thinking, ‘what dysfunctional sisters!!’, let me make it clear, I love Jana to bits! She makes me laugh till I cry, she does the stupidiest things to make me laugh and c’mon, I prayed for her with all my might when I was a kid. And so, continuing the letter..

Well, time flies, you’ve really grown into such a beautiful young lady. And although we may fight at times and I keep wanting to take your most unglamorous shots everytime you sleepover in my room, I want you to know that I love you a lot and I’m so proud of you. I was especially proud of you during your baptism. To be honest, I was trying my best not to tear (now you know)!! I’m so proud of all your achivements, I’m so proud that you’re my sister, I’m so proud of you I’m sure if I brought you to a farming competition, you’d win the ‘best pumpkin award’!

Do you know that when you told me you were dating someone, I was OVER THE MOON. Because I never expected you to share anything like that with me. I told all my friends about it because I was seriously so happy for you! I’m glad that you still talk to me about stuff because that’s what sisters are for; love, encouragement and advice. I want you to know that despite our occasional very very heated arguments, I love you to death and I’d do anything for you to be safe and happy. I also want you to know that in anything that you do, you have the family’s 100% support and love. I want you to know that family will always always be there for you; friends may come and go, so may boyfriends, but family stays :)

To end it off, I love you and I will always be protective of you, simply because I’m you’re da jie and I prayed so hard for you. I won’t let anything bad happen to you, I promise :)

P.S. Thank you God for Jana, I wouldn’t have it any other way

2 Little People

I know how I said I’d be taking a mini hiatus, but blogging really helps me to de-stress. So since I’ve done up what I’m supposed to do for the day, here I am :) Remember how I mentioned a few posts before that I want to blog about something very close to my heart. Well, today is the day.

I love my family. I love them to death. Though at times we may fight and all, but I guess it’s part and parcel of being a family. And I love my family A LOT (think I mentioned that before). So this post is dedicated to two very special little people in my life (#2, you will get yours soon I promise!). Though I know that they’re growing each day, and maturing into fine young people, they’ll always remain little in my eyes. I cannot imagine my life without them. I cannot imagine not hearing their boisterous and ‘not very polite’ loud chuckles. I cannot imagine not having them sleep with me when I’m back in Singapore. I cannot imagine not having a hand to hold when we head out for our usual ‘da jie and jnj’ dates. Basically, I cannot imagine life without them.

Few weeks ago, I was looking at photos of them that were taken few years back and boy have they grown. And I can tell too because when I now hold James’s hand, it’s so meaty and big! So different compared to his little baby hand :) He’s also grown so tall; taller than me in fact! And Jaz too! She’s so mature now. She’s like an old soul in a crazy little kid. I just love it! I need to sleep now, but before I go, I’ll leave you all with some photos of my very dear two little people.

Babies

See! He was so small!

Just the way I'd like to remember them :)

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Very Blessed

Dear God,

Thank you for blessing me with family and friends who love me and care for me. No amount of money in the world can buy the heartwarming genuine love I’ve experienced throughout my 23 years on this earth. Thank you for their well wishes; it allows me to know that I’ve played a part in their lives and am worth remembering. Thank you for loving me and blessing me with good health and wisdom. I have made many mistakes in my life but You’ve always been there for me; for that I am ever grateful. My life hasn’t always been smooth sailing, it still isn’t. I still struggle from day to day but I know that there is nothing to fear because I know who holds the future.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.”
Proverbs 3:5-6 

P.S. And with this post, I shall be going on a mini hiatus. Just finished my thesis (hurrah) and now it’s time to study for the exams (there’s HEAPS and it’s awfully difficult!). Love you all!

Thank You :)

This has got to be the bestestest besterestt BEST green tea I’ve ever had! Trashes 3 Monkeys and Cocoa Woo hands down. No fight at all! Ok it may look ugly but it’s really good!! Super lame photo but it was fun while it lasted! Love you loreko! CHEERS!! HAHAHA!!Nice collage You never fail to crack me up. You made me laugh so hard that I cried.. Idiot :) (Don’t click on the image below, it’s just a print screen)

Tsk!

I know many people have started studying for exams. But I haven’t. Because of my thesis and because I’ve been feeling sleepy. Spent last night having dinner at Piaf with friends :)